I've been laying very low lately. And for me, that is hard.
I like going. Doing.
But, I've been asking myself lately, "Why do I do what I do?"
I constantly found myself tired, bitter, jealous and even depressed. After this pattern in my life for as far back as I can remember, God has graciously shown me something.
It all boils down to where I am looking for my value.
I want others to like me. Ok, not just like me. REALLY like me. To think I am something special. Worth something. Valuable.
That's not all together wrong. Every one wants to be liked. It's part of being human.
But, I realized that half of what I was doing was a feeble attempt to find self-worth.
Case in point:
I put pressures on myself to cook more elaborate meals, decorate harder for holidays, clean better, workout, dress more stylish and even plan family activities in order to "measure up" or "keep up" with what it sure seems everyone else out there is doing.
And then, I had to "document" it through Instagram, Facebook and other "look at me" arenas. Why?
The truth is, most of my life is unglamorous. And, yet I have found myself trying so hard to convince myself and others otherwise. It is maddening!
Now, while I recognize this is my struggle, I am convinced that it is a prevalent problem.
Why do any of us feel the need to share the glorious moments of our lives?
We can't wait to post a pic of our perfect vacation, our kitchen re-do, or our skinny pictures. We work hard to let others know that we have performed our "wifely duties" and created a meal worthy of Martha Stewart. We post statuses of how fantastic our family outing was or how picture-perfect our kid's birthday party was. We even use our cell phones as mini-glamour-shot sessions to get a picture worthy of our Facebook profile shot.
Am I the only one who sees how sick this is getting?
Deep down, we want people to think we are worth something. We want to impress. To prove that we are (or once were) smart, organized, creative, funny, and pretty. Valuable.
We are all searching for value.
Where we find it, though, can be glorious or dangerous.
Are you losing sight of where your value is? I was.
Do you realize that your worth isn't found in your waistline, your husband, your ability to home-school your kids, your pocketbook, your number of blog-followers, your well-behaved children, your fashion-sense or any other darn-tootin' earthly thing?
The truth is, we are worth more than gold.
And it is by nothing we do. It is because of Whose we are.
God sent His Son to prove my value. I'm learning to REST in that fact.
Please, share how God might be showing you that you are seeking value in the wrong places? I love hearing from you. We are in this together!
I like going. Doing.
But, I've been asking myself lately, "Why do I do what I do?"
I constantly found myself tired, bitter, jealous and even depressed. After this pattern in my life for as far back as I can remember, God has graciously shown me something.
It all boils down to where I am looking for my value.
I want others to like me. Ok, not just like me. REALLY like me. To think I am something special. Worth something. Valuable.
That's not all together wrong. Every one wants to be liked. It's part of being human.
But, I realized that half of what I was doing was a feeble attempt to find self-worth.
Case in point:
I put pressures on myself to cook more elaborate meals, decorate harder for holidays, clean better, workout, dress more stylish and even plan family activities in order to "measure up" or "keep up" with what it sure seems everyone else out there is doing.
And then, I had to "document" it through Instagram, Facebook and other "look at me" arenas. Why?
The truth is, most of my life is unglamorous. And, yet I have found myself trying so hard to convince myself and others otherwise. It is maddening!
Now, while I recognize this is my struggle, I am convinced that it is a prevalent problem.
Why do any of us feel the need to share the glorious moments of our lives?
We can't wait to post a pic of our perfect vacation, our kitchen re-do, or our skinny pictures. We work hard to let others know that we have performed our "wifely duties" and created a meal worthy of Martha Stewart. We post statuses of how fantastic our family outing was or how picture-perfect our kid's birthday party was. We even use our cell phones as mini-glamour-shot sessions to get a picture worthy of our Facebook profile shot.
Am I the only one who sees how sick this is getting?
Deep down, we want people to think we are worth something. We want to impress. To prove that we are (or once were) smart, organized, creative, funny, and pretty. Valuable.
We are all searching for value.
Where we find it, though, can be glorious or dangerous.
Are you losing sight of where your value is? I was.
Do you realize that your worth isn't found in your waistline, your husband, your ability to home-school your kids, your pocketbook, your number of blog-followers, your well-behaved children, your fashion-sense or any other darn-tootin' earthly thing?
The truth is, we are worth more than gold.
And it is by nothing we do. It is because of Whose we are.
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God sent His Son to prove my value. I'm learning to REST in that fact.
Please, share how God might be showing you that you are seeking value in the wrong places? I love hearing from you. We are in this together!
