God's been up to a lot.
In fact, the past three weeks have been the most challenging to my faith.
A wrecked car, lots of throw-up, and a child with a yet-to-be-determined health problem are just a few of the things that have been on my plate.
But, in the moments of despair or uncertainty, I have heard this question in my heart:
"Does your faith meet you in the reality of this situation?"
If not, it's mere words and it isn't REAL.
God does not need lip service. (He sees right through it, actually.)
He LOVES our hearts, even as broken and human as they are.
I am weak and tired.
He has promised, "Come to me, all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest."
But, do I believe that?
Or do I keep going and going until I break down on my kids or my husband or BOTH?
I am learning to apply my faith. I have, in my weaknesses lately, been able to see things that God has been trying to reveal about myself for a long time.
And as hard as it is, I am thankful...
That He loves me too much to leave me as I am.
That He wants me to EXPERIENCE the full life, not just psychologically convince myself that I am living it already.
His Word is living. And I am glad to say I am just now really learning what that means.
Hey, better late than never, right?